Tuesday, August 18, 2009

The Monkey within

There is a darkness in my soul
A deep desire to explore the boundaries of my senses
Somewhere in my senses I meet pain, despair, angst and deep sadness
somewhere in my sensing I feel this is not mine alone
sometimes I feel incapable of carrying this loaded weight
the depths of darkness can drown the worst my of sorrows
and let me lose myself in inspired depravity.
To be able to accept this duality within or without, I must begin somwhere
or so i thought innocently as I wept
I seek without for solace within to place my wrongs on rights
and find myself beating around the bush again
creating limited concepts to contain the darkness and make it seem lighter.
The hedonistic rapture of ignorance is sweet , it tastes of bliss.
Yet deep inside is an urge, the faint whispering in my soul
it is not knowledge you seek, but rather freedom from mind
place your faith in the heart and leave fear behind.